The nature of sickness

I sat on a centuries old root outside of the house in Sant Joan Mallorca, while my mentor Thomas Hertlein carved another root to make it into a piece of furniture for his house.

He is known as the human decoder – someone who has the ability to understand expressions of life and decode them. Some of the expressions he is able to decode are diseases – like my melanoma. We had been working on it for months by then. I had gone into big processes with myself. Some of the worlds we had opened I got lost in. I kept wanting someone to take over. I kept wanting someone to tell me what is right and what is wrong. It was so hard for me to stand for something I felt. I didn’t know what I really felt – what I really wanted.

- Look, he said, and pointed to a colony of worms that appeared inside the tree trunk. I see myself as the intruder that comes and destroys their world. They are not doing anything wrong – but as I change the so-called momentary destiny of this tree trunk they are not needed here anymore. I don’t want worms inside my house.

- This is just like cancer or any other sickness of the body – it’s not doing anything wrong inside the body, just following the momentary destiny. Imagine you stop using the capacity of your lungs and the body says: okay we don’t need that as it is anymore. So it is like this tree trunk allowed to start decomposing itself.

I listened to him and pieces started to come together about skin cancer. What I called healing was changing the momentary destiny of the body. Or something like changing the momentum of the body.

Emmi Lahti

Need to control something?

How many of us feels an urge to control our life, surroundings, people around? What if we bring this need to another level and live it there? How would that change your life, relationships, work?

"The most beautiful moment is when we hold back the horse with his fear to run (dressure). This is culture; confrontating the horse with the fear. It is like with food. If we eat cultured we show that we control our system and that we are far from surviving. This is quality. Power – but not out of control.” – Thomas Hertlein